I know I should have post this sooner.. That I currently using blogspot to blog my entries. I don’t know. I guess I just feel using blogspot I can be more open and stuff.. Haha.. So this short entry just to let you guys know I’m at http://redslifeat.blogspot.com so see ya peeps there for those who read my blogs here.. I’ll see ya when I see ya..
Syaiful.
It has been quite a while since my tonsillitis thing.
Feeling better now. Can swallow normally now.
Just that recently had a terrible flu. Haha.
Prone to sickness.
Well. It’s called ORD sickness.
Funny I’m typing this way. Maybe thanks to the recent blog I’ve read.
My friend shared it to me for me to read it.
Good blogger and really great sense of humor.
Better writer than I am of course. I’m just blabbering about my life.
As for him, he does it in a bigger picture.
For those of you can’t take criticism or jokes. Best you don’t read it.
Or you might get offended easily then better stay out of it.
Anyway I find him cool.
Remind me of someone I used to know but the opposite.
Or maybe the same.
Not sure if I should promote his blog.
I could be in trouble doing so. Haha.
Maybe I’ll try get in touch with him first before I really write down the add.
[What the heck.. Check it out.. http://thatbloodycritic.blogspot.com
And out of courtesy this is the friend who intro me to critic http://bell412ep.blogspot.com ]
Anyway, recently about a week ago, I attended Linkin Park Concert.
Hell it was great.
Hell I was actually recording the whole concert.
Of course breaking them into parts of different songs they sang.
Well more like WE sang.
I’m uploading the video to another service provider.
Once it’s completed maybe you could watch.
And of course, what do you expect of a camera phone.
Not forgetting the excitement and the jumping around.
The screaming for all the crazy fans.
Pushing around as if it’s the end of the world.
You can’t really expect a good quality.
But that’s the least I can offer.
Well right now as I type I’m actually uploading the video.
14 videos in total.
Still figuring out how to break the last video.
Cause it’s a 10 minutes max.
The last video is 13 minutes.
Anyways, the concert really worth my $150. I didn’t mind.
For my fav band of all time.
The only band I could rely on to heal my soul.
It really worth.
Goodness watching the video back I could still feel the excitement.
Linkin Park is how I really express myself when ever I have to hate someone I hold so dear.
Just check the lyrics of their songs.
In Hybrid Theory and Meteora.
They are really angry songs but in a healthy way.
I guess I’ll just wait for the videos to finish upload.
Until the next entry.
- Syaiful, 18th November 2007, 10.57pm
Was really wondering what’s happening with me. First I it started as a hot week. Then I just couldn’t get enough of smoke and now I’m sick.
About more than a week ago I was down with a fever 38.6 degrees Celsius. Goodness, high fever I thought. I couldn’t really take the heat so I went to report sick at Tengah Air Base camp as it was on Monday night. My throat was really killing me at that time too. So I got my medications and funny that the doc only gave me Att B (Light Duties only).
I really thought I was having high fever so why Att B? 38.6 is a no joke during that SARS outbreak. Don’t Singapore ever learn anything? That was my thought at that time. So the very next day after my friends pester me to go report sick again to get Att C status so I’m allowed to return to home and rest. So I did it and I went home. Still my medical officer only gave me 2 days MC. My thoughts were like is he MAD? my temperature still 38.4 degrees Celsius and how is it going down in 2 days time?
While I was at home it was the worst experience ever, I can’t swallow, I can’t eat, I can’t drink, I was practically one useless person. So weak feels like it’s better that I die than keep on fighting to stay alive. I just have no mood to do anything. My temperature is hot but I’m feeling cold. Strange but true. So I was brought to my this very good doctor. He says I have Tonsillitis. My thoughts were Yay! Now I know the disease name so is there anything that could make it go away? He gave me a $90 jab and I was feeling alive again. The temperature went down so as my throat feeling a little better. I was sweating like a pig.
Two days later I was going back to camp. That was my biggest mistake. I had forgotten that I couldn’t eat Egg and Fish yet, I ate it. The next morning, 39.2 degrees Celsius. I was freak out. Feeling the same old feeling again. Hot but cold. I drag myself to the toilet and I just let the water pour on me with my clothes on. Hell it was cold but I have to keep on going hoping my temperature would go down. But after I was directed to the medical centre by my friend, they checked my temperature. It was still 39.2 degrees Celsius. So they I.V. me to let the temperature down and it did. 37.8 degrees but my head at that time feel so light and heavy at the same time. Like a giddy feeling. So again I got to go back home. On a Friday. Haha.. So much for a half day.
So it got worst, I was sent to the same very good doctor again. This time he told me get it remove. The only one thing I hate to do. Operation. Removal of Tonsils. I was referred to Alexandra Hospital. Still feeling hot and no will to live, I just sat down and enjoyed the cooling aircon. Went the doctor called I went to the room, goodness, a female doctor. So much I thought it was going to be a guy doctor and finally. She see my tonsils and check if I still have fever. Goodness didn’t know by massaging your neck you can find out if there’s fever or not. Great skill!
After that I was referred to another doctor. Another female doctor specialize in Ear Nose and Throat. She checked my throat through a camera tube entering my nose. Weird experience that was. As if I was getting a nose… Well you know what I mean. She says my throat is really swollen and she wants me to endure another two more days and let the swollen subsides and then we’ll see if it got worst then they have to put me on hold and get ready for the operations. Phew.. One burden done. And thank you 11-B. Everything was free.
While I was at home bored and nothing to do, I did a research on Tonsillitis and Tonsillitis Cancer. Scary, really scary. Smoking and Drinking Alcohol can cause Tonsillitis. So I guess during that time I was feeling hot and I can’t get enough of smoke it causes me getting Tonsillitis just the only difference that I didn’t drink anything that is alcoholic. Now even as I write this it’s been 10 days I didn’t smoke. Planning to quit and hopefully this is one of that ways. Just had to pay a terrible price.
Two days later it some how or rather I was feeling better but I figured I had trouble swallowing my pills. Feels like it got stuck. Even now I’m having trouble but after seeing another doctor at Alexandra Hospital at clinic G, she didn’t really say anything much even I had told her that I had difficulties in swallowing the pills. So I guess she knows what she’s doing. So I was given another appointment date. 19 November. Now I just couldn’t find where is my appointment card. Haiz..
Right now I’m feeling ok. Still a little bit pain in eating and drinking and the pills still gives me a stuck feeling in my throat. I hope it would go away soon because Linkin Park is coming!! Still that’s the only thing for me to look forward to. This week I’m having a block leave. Wasted leave that I had to be sick. If not I would have gone out away enjoying outside life. Anyway that could wait until 2 December. ORD oh! I’m so going to enjoy that last 29 days of my life for 2007. Even though alone, I believe I’ll manage.
Well that’s for me today. I’m just going to Maple away. Don’t worry. I’ll still be around unless…. Best not mentioning it. I’ll See ya when I See ya..
- Syaiful, 8th November 2007, 11.07am.
Hmm.. I don’t know what to say for this entry. Seems like I’m feeling sick today I just can’t think of something to say.
One thing for sure, the past one week was really hot. Haha. Seriously, what the hell happen to the weather, it’s almost November where the rainy seasons are and on October it’s so freaking hot I need to bathe at least 5 times a day or ice on my face just to survive the heat. Hopefully this coming week it’ll not be a hot week. Please let it be a rainy week.
Well that’s because Atec stage 1 is starting soon. Today will be the verdict who goes where and do what on which day. Goodness I’m just freaking excited and nervous at the same time. Oh not forgetting what I’m sick too. Gosh. I want to do the test but at the same time I want to escape it. Haha. Contradiction.
Well after Atec stage 1 then I’ll have like about 6 weeks to worry about and then goodbye to 4 SIR eh? Haha. Well we’ll see how it goes. Things are not confirm just as yet. Well I got to go pack my stuff for book in today. Got about 1 hour left. Another time.
- Syaiful, 6th October 2007, 8.40pm.
Well basically I just can’t wait to ORD. Yeah. Left about 8 weeks and 3 days from the day I wrote this. Really excited to just slack and not do anything but of course, part of my want to stay. I still can’t lie that to myself.
Lots of my friends and commanders encourage me to extend and think about it, but majority of them told me," Don’t be stupid, take your pink IC and F.O. from this camp!". Good advice though but then I’ll be missing a lot.
When comes reservist I won’t be able to join your ATEC conversations neither I could actually contribute something for the platoon. I really will miss those and it’s a three months gap. I’m sure to miss a lot in that three months.
My section, commanders, my platoon and my company. I just wish I’m really strong enough to have to courage but I believe at my state now, I think I’ll be pulling the company down rather then making it goes up. Man, this really suck. Feels like you’re separating with someone you really cared most.
Well, like someone I know, always says this," Nothing Last Forever." Well I believe we will prove him wrong. Our brotherhood forever stays strong.
Brotherhood Bravery Bravo.
The Braves.
Forever.
Syaiful, 2nd October 2007, 9.16pm.
Finally I just feel like typing. Didn’t know why after I came back from Taiwan I didn’t wanna talk about it. Probably I just feel troubled after coming back to Singapore. The thoughts of regrets of my past doings, my relationships, my life and my friends. I guess it hurt me more then anyone actually know.
I don’t know if I’m just being strong or I am strong but at times I’ll just stare into mid air and think about life. How is it going to be when I’ve ORD? How is my life going to be once I’m out of the Army? This will be my most important part of my life. Army is just another education life to me. After this is my real life. How am I going to survive?
I could just come back to my old work place but is that what I really want to do in life? I do dream being a teacher, or having my own desk and office phone or wear ties and sleeve shirt to work with a brief case. Kinda cool right? Look like one of the blue collars. Then again, my education, I can’t go far being a poly drop out. Even right now I don’t remember what I’ve studied.
Now I feel that I’m being bad to my friends. I didn’t contact them much. It’s almost as if when I have a new friend I forgot about the old ones. It’s just hard to keep track each one of them. Sometimes I’m just being misunderstood. Still there are a few I still calls as they are the closest to me. Then again, I’m just being unfair with others.
Relationships? Well that’s the one thing I’m glad I’m not having right now. It’s just giving me problems having one. I’m still not ready for relationships though I do miss having one. Anyway so far my life alone is really educational and peaceful. I believe my blood pressure has gone down too.
Now fasting month already started and for the record, I’m already one year being single. Haha. If only there’s an award, but lately I’m having these dreams and so far my dreams became reality. Kinda freaky but cool at the same time. If only I can control and make my own dreams, then I guess I can stop worrying about my life. Haha.
Wonder if I’m having a special powers or something. Maybe it’s a sign. Trying to telling me something. Hope whatever it is, hopefully it’s a good one. Oh and by the way, Taiwan is really a great place. I really wish to go there again sometimes. Chelsea Yami the view is really great. If only I had a camera back then. Well got to rest my head. Getting sleepy.
- Syaiful, 23rd September 2007, 2.39AM.
Just wanna say that I’m in Taiwan Now!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! Can’t believe that I’m playing LAN here. 10 NT dollars for 45 Minutes.. You do the MATHS.. It’s Cheap here!! ARGH!!! Well talk more later about my Taiwan trip when I got the time to.. Later Guys..
-Syai, 29th March 2007, 8.57pm.
Yesterday was a really great night. I enjoyed myself a lot. Basically I went clubbing yesterday. M.O.S. Drink a bit but not too much. Didn’t even reached tipsy level. As usual how clubbing management works, always play the boring songs first and ends with good songs but double quick time. Sound almost like foot drill in army. Haha..
Then through out the fun times someone caught my attention. This someone, who reminded me a lot of you know who. Seriously, the acts, talks, the craziness, the exaggeration and the smile. Every thing’s the same. Not forgetting the height, the smile and the size. Goodness it’s like a complete replica.
I did enjoy watching the similarities but then only now I’m feeling that pain. I don’t know why, is it because I’ve not move on? Or is it because my heart is aching for some love? I really have no idea. I don’t know who to turn to in this situation. My friends? Family? Close buddies? Well normally people who’s fed up with me they’ll just say,"What ever.. MOVE ON!!". Easier said then done.
I don’t know. I really don’t know. Sometimes I just wish I could erase my Love emotions for now. Like "Cut" it and put it on the clipboard for next time usage. Isn’t great that way? Easier life for everyone in the world. Cut their unwanted emotions temporary and "Paste" them back when you want them back. Haha.
Well then I’m pretty sleepy. Still need to rest more. SOC test tomorrow. Hopefully I can pass. Please. I want to STOP SOC RT!! Well then I guess I’ll write more later evening. Sleeping time. ZzZzZzZzZz…
-Syaiful, 15th March 2007, 11.10am.
Sure I took my time in wanting to write my next life happenings. Lots really happen for the past 6 days. For starters, let’s start a week ago.
I did had a long weekend. Only slept a few hours. So I slept right after last parade, with my shoes on without noticing it. The best thing of all is when I woke up the next morning. I was surprise to see white stains on my bed and black stains on my pillow. I knew I didn’t see them the night before I slept. I checked my body seems like no traces of them on myself. Only about around afternoon they finally admit did those thing. They put kiwi on my face while I was sleeping and toothpaste on my legs. What’s best of all is that they put tape on my leg and pull them off quickly as if it’s waxing and I still didn’t wake up. I was good as in a coma. Haha..
Then came Tuesday where my S.A.W. ATP. Well I really had very good confidence that day to get my marksman title. Sadly I didn’t. My S.A.W. weapon from 1 SIR butt number A05 serial number 002997 mark 2 practically I confidently say it’s a spoil weapon. The fore sight tip couldn’t be adjusted and I kept aiming low when I actually aimed at the target. I told my Platoon Commander and my sergeant but seems like they only gave me one choice which I actually find it very ridiculous and not fair for me, COMBAT ZEROING. Like a reaction you would receive in the internet world when you’re in shocked, W.T.F. So I didn’t get my marksman. I didn’t get my $200 dollars. So I really feel this is unfair. I know I could get easily that title because it’s a piece of cake. 60/118 is really easy to achieve. Sadly I receive a faulty weapon. So with that ‘faulty weapon’ I scored 43/118. I passed but no marksman.
The best thing about S.A.W. weapon you can’t shoot it during the night because the Rear sight aperture is small. Not like M16 which have two different holes for day shooting and night shooting. Funny that they give M203 gunners LED but not to S.A.W. gunners where M203 gunner could use the second hole just like M16. S.A.W. practically can’t do anything at night but just COMBAT ZEROING again.
Then after the whole thing ended we went back to camp and I got more surprises. When I alighted the bus people was like going shouting my name about best soldier or something. I was like ‘What nonsence’. When I saw the white board, I guess they aren’t kidding. My name was written on the board it says,"PTE Syaiful, CO interview at 1200hrs" under the heading of Best Soldier. I so panic that I ask everyone who got a shaver to cut my hair instead of enjoying what I achieve. Haha. Not that I want the title, I mean it’s quite an honour feeling. On Wednesday,the next day, I wore my smartest No. 4 and had my hair cut and went for the interview, more like group interview. I did talk a lot giving suggestion and what people would likely want to know what CO would say if I were to say this but actually I didn’t had the courage to open up. Didn’t want to be pinned down by CO words.
So after the interview thing I did know the results. I didn’t get the Battalion Best. The Support guy did. Well who won’t, IPPT Silver or Gold and SOC pass obviously get the title easily unlike me, both still a fail. Well, still, being able to be nominated for Battalion Best did make me little famous. Haha. Though I know they like to tease me I just, well, go with the flow.
After that day I don’t really remember anything memorable other then we book out on Thursday for the 5 km run on Friday at East Coast Park. OH!! Yeah.. On that very Wednesday after the interview, I was being selected to do Guard Duty. HOW NICE!! And all I know that Thursday I didn’t had a good rest or should I say, sleep.
Friday itself well went for the run and had a long journey back home because I took bus instead of the train. Then the night we had to book in for RT training on Saturday. Well it’s IPPT test then SOC RT. Well, I’m really used to doing this. Kinda a norm. Anyway I don’t have a life outside camp. Might as well just do.
Now weekends have ended and time for me to go back to camp. I only left one week before I go to Taiwan for one month. Going to miss lots of you here in my friendster list and those who read my blog. I thank you for reading them. I know my english not that good especially when I’m rushing. Anyway I really got to go. Need to get ready to book in.
Peace out.
-Syaiful, 11th March 2007, 9.19pm.
Seems to me that pink colour is easier to read. At least the background black and the pink wordings, the contrast is not that extreme.
Well since the time I post the lyrics earlier this morning until now, I didn’t sleep. To be frank, since Saturday morning at 5am til now, I didn’t sleep well. Total sleeping hours, 3 only.
Don’t know what’s wrong with me. My brain is not functioning properly. Game is an importance but not my sleep. I’m so going to knock off early today at bunk.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me still. Suddenly I’m beginning to think of myself in the future, like will I ever get married? Or found that special someone? Or maybe I’ll just stay single til I’m old? It’s kind of stressful thinking of the future and planning what I’m going to do with my life. Since I’m like 9 months away to ORD.
Seriously, what should I do? All I had in mind was to go back to coffee bean and work. Then get a part time diploma. Then if it is going according to plan, NIE. Haha. Well that part still considering.
Well enough said about future stuff, thinking of it already causing my head to spin. I guess my finger didn’t recover fully, I still can’t bent to my normal bending. Question is, should I go see MO on Monday morning? Or maybe after my S.A.W. ATP on tuesday then I go and report?
I guess I could make it until the ATP but I not sure about the other hand exercise. Hopefully it’ll recover well. It’s kinda irritating feeling that my finger hurts, especially on my master hand.
ATP. Hopefully I can get marksman this time. 200 bucks!! Wooohooo!! Haha.. First, I need to score 50 then the 200 bucks will come in.
Well enough blogging. Need to pack my stuff for book in and I need to buy some toiletaries too. Peace out.
Syaiful, 02th March 2007, 8.38pm.
